I have a doctor's appointment coming up this week and this and Uber rides were the only time I wore a mask since being released from the hospital. I wore the same effing dirty mask that was given to me in the hospital that does not work, and I just feel like such a fake/pretender/idiot when I wear something I know doesn't work.
I feel so so so angry and downtrodden when wearing a mask. My husband got mad once when we were in a store so I put my mask on to shut him up. And I thought, "Is this how Muslim women feel when forced to wear the hijab? Haven't I always thought no husband would force ME to wear the hijab?" And that was enough to snap me out of the compliant mode.
I have a doctor's appointment coming up this week and this and Uber rides were the only time I wore a mask since being released from the hospital. I wore the same effing dirty mask that was given to me in the hospital that does not work, and I just feel like such a fake/pretender/idiot when I wear something I know doesn't work.
I feel so so so angry and downtrodden when wearing a mask. My husband got mad once when we were in a store so I put my mask on to shut him up. And I thought, "Is this how Muslim women feel when forced to wear the hijab? Haven't I always thought no husband would force ME to wear the hijab?" And that was enough to snap me out of the compliant mode.