It really hurts that my dearest sister, a lifelong friend, "did not mind one bit throwing [her] niceness overboard against those [me and my partner, the only unvexed in the family]" whom her flock vilified... she "did not even question [her alarming position] when it came to [her] nearest and dearest."
It really hurts that my dearest sister, a lifelong friend, "did not mind one bit throwing [her] niceness overboard against those [me and my partner, the only unvexed in the family]" whom her flock vilified... she "did not even question [her alarming position] when it came to [her] nearest and dearest."
It's hurt me too, with the 'family' that I come from on both sides ALL choosing to get jabbed (bar one aunt!). But the difference is, I didn't have the best household growing up, so my sister is neither my 'dearest' or a lifelong friend. So it's easier for me to not particularly care what happens to them anymore. You, however, retain both the luxury and the misery of being close to your family. I learned early on that the family I came from was mostly there to hurt me. I chose differently when I came to marry because I knew my upbringing wasn't right and I have made a wonderful family.
So my feelings are twofold for you, finnbuck: I sympathise with you yet love that you are being hurt all in one, only because you actually had the love I always wanted as a kid growing up! I'm sorry for your pain and the grieving you have done (and will continue to do). But please remember the strange silver lining is that you would not feel the way you do if you did not know true love. And that is an amazing thing to experience, even though it currently hurts immeasurably.
It really hurts that my dearest sister, a lifelong friend, "did not mind one bit throwing [her] niceness overboard against those [me and my partner, the only unvexed in the family]" whom her flock vilified... she "did not even question [her alarming position] when it came to [her] nearest and dearest."
It's hurt me too, with the 'family' that I come from on both sides ALL choosing to get jabbed (bar one aunt!). But the difference is, I didn't have the best household growing up, so my sister is neither my 'dearest' or a lifelong friend. So it's easier for me to not particularly care what happens to them anymore. You, however, retain both the luxury and the misery of being close to your family. I learned early on that the family I came from was mostly there to hurt me. I chose differently when I came to marry because I knew my upbringing wasn't right and I have made a wonderful family.
So my feelings are twofold for you, finnbuck: I sympathise with you yet love that you are being hurt all in one, only because you actually had the love I always wanted as a kid growing up! I'm sorry for your pain and the grieving you have done (and will continue to do). But please remember the strange silver lining is that you would not feel the way you do if you did not know true love. And that is an amazing thing to experience, even though it currently hurts immeasurably.